An experience never to be forgotten, the first sight, the first smell, the first energetic exchange. And then…the inevitable doubt , confusion and dismissal that follows. What cannot be explained is just too hard to fathom and so the best option is to ignore or suppress what were feeling by however means or substance but … those of us who choose to allow ourselves to feel the emotions although unjustified, unwarranted and unexplained despite the confusion it brings, open new doors of exploration of the outer world as well as within ushering in our journey of self discovery.